Love is the Ultimate...

 

There is so much I want to say... I'm not quite sure where to begin? Initially I was going to write about my birthday and celebration of life until the tragic news of a young girl committing suicide hit me like a ton of bricks. Of course when I heard the news of yet another suicide by hanging I was saddened and gasped when I realized we were connected by a few degrees of separation. I had met Simone Battle 3 years back briefly. I didn't know her but she had become one of the members of the group GRL which was modeled after the Pussycat Dolls by Robin Antin. Not long after reading the news all over social media I started feeling spacey and getting strange sensations that finally burst into a full out breakdown. I was sick to my stomach and trying to figure out why it was affecting me so intensely. A couple of the Dolls reached out to each other and we were feeling similarly overwhelmed with emotions. It was interesting how, my life and being a mother now is far from the touring girl band life, but in an instant a whirlwind of emotions came right back. The feelings that can take you under and consume you because they are your world. Highs and lows, good times and lots of dark ones. The dark world of the entertainment industry doesn't get spoken of too often. THAT, is a whole other conversation but I choose to remember the good stuff! I do believe there will always be good and bad, balance and lessons in everything but for some reason my feeling is that the scales are tipping too far in the wrong direction. We as human beings are meant to thrive, not survive. We all have blessings bestowed upon us and lights to shine. The journey is to connect to those gifts. People think celebrities and famous people have no right to complain and that their lives are perfect but the "norm" these days, artists feel empty, lonely and ultimately that the business is spirit sucking. Unfortunately, from the outside in, fame has become the "epitome" of happiness? WRONG! It's like a facade that can mask layers of pain, insecurities and leave you with no time to address the reality. I keep thinking... Fame at what cost?! In the most recent cases, Robin Williams and Simone. These were beautiful and talented bright stars who somehow lost sight of their power. It makes me so angry. I want to blame something and someone but that does not solve anything. I'm still processing everything but in the meantime I am declaring that we all start talking more to each other authentically. No bullshit surface conversations but real, in depth talk. Tell everyone how you feel about them, especially your loved ones. Acknowledge them, encourage them and most of all LISTEN. Stop gossiping and speaking negatively about anyone. We need each other more than ever now. We can't ignore and pretend that this will just get better. 

Love is the ULTIMATE. To be continued...